What if I told you it really does get better?
I know that can seem patronizing. I've been there. And sometimes, if I'm complacent enough, I can still get there. But for the most part, life is better than I ever dared to hope.
In passing I commented the other day, "I choose to see myself; not in memories of what I've lost, but instead in the things I dare to dream." I spent so long being afraid to dream, afraid to try, knowing more often than not I would end up feeling failure and in embracing that I perpetuated the depression, the angst. It was a curious moment when I realized I had to CHOOSE otherwise.
Yes, I have a long list of diagnosis'. Yes, I did/do require therapy in many forms to stay healthy, but that's it. I am just staying healthy. It's not a shame, it's not something I fear anymore or feel the need to hide. I am simply CHOOSING to live the life that supports my desire to stay healthy and MENTALLY FIT.
Maybe this is one of those soap box moments where I just feel the need to stand up and scream, it can be so much better; or maybe this is just another wall coming down in hopes of revealing a piece of myself that has been so important in getting to where I am. In any case, here it is; Choose happy! Choose to embrace hope and dream in every possibility! Try not to read these words with spite or in doubt. I understand all too well the ease at which we can embrace what feels impossible. Just today, try something different. Go for a walk. Throw on your favourite CD. Hit up a yoga class. Invite a friend for coffee. Just try something different, and if only for 1 minute of that you forget to be "lost", it's a minute to build off of!
I choose to believe you <3ReplyDelete